Had a dream last night...strange things those dreams. Makes me wonder what is trapped in this head of mine. I have vivid dreams, intensely vivid dreams where I wake up convinced I just experienced the dream as if it just actually happened. I oftentimes wake up so disoriented that I have no idea what day it is, where I am, or what I am doing. And sometimes, not often, but sometimes I have to remember who I am. It's crazy.
I have also noticed that as my stress level rises, the dreams become more bizarre. In this dream I was some place rather public and I was topless. It was strange in that it was ok that I was topless; it wasn't bothersome to anyone, including me. I felt somewhat exposed but yet I was able to engage and interact with the people in the dream. The exposure or embarrassment was more like a feeling you would have if you were under-dressed, that's all. But still, I woke up wondering WHAT was THAT all about.
I am sure if I were to explore it more with a psychoanalyst I could decipher my unconscious and find underlying emotions, but I don't need to. These dreams are what a friend once called 'anxiety dreams.' We're moving across the world to live and serve in Africa! Hello? We have joined a new mission. Stressful; wonderfully stressful. I am in a position of great responsibility, therefore adding even more stress and anxiety. I don't need a therapist to tell me all this stress and anxiety is coming out in my dream life.
But out of curiosity, I googled the Dream Dictionary online and found a couple of different meanings for nakedness; vulnerability or openness. Both seem to fit, as extreme as they are. I am feeling vulnerable and yet have nothing to hide, I am open, as we press forward. I have to admit, reading the meanings gave me a bit of comfort: A note of commonality.
Hey, here's a wandering thought....maybe I should keep a dream log. Oh man, that just might be the next 50 shades of.....
Miss Jones.